For my first reading, the question is.
“I am thinking of becoming Pagan, I have been drawn to it for a number of years and I feel have gifts that I have had to deny, both to myself and others. My family are Strict Christian’s and won’t understand why I’m doing this, can the Tarot help me with some advice on how to get through this.”
I am using the Golden Tarot by Kat Black. It is a beautiful deck with Middle Age and Early Renaissance artwork, and you can explore some of the images on http://goldentarot.com/. The deck is based on Medieval images with some Christian references, so I thought it would be appropriate for your reading.
I am using a simple three card spread. I do not read reversed cards.
- What should you not do?
- What should you do?
- What is the meaning of the situation, and what lessons can be learnt?
- What not to do. Page of Coins
The Page of Coins is the ultimate student of the Tarot – he is enthusiastic, studious, and dedicated. Yet he has many lessons to learn in terms of creativity and independence. The Golden Tarot depicts the Page in a large red gown and red hat, holding a golden coin. At this feet are a leaping goat and an open book. He is looking above the coin to an angel. The landscape is rocky with a few scattered bushes.
Pages are messengers (and this page is accompanied by an angel), hence I would urge you not to tell your parents about your paganism. All the symbols in this card point to openness (open book, leaping goat, angel) but this attitude may not be the best one to take in your case. Although you are keen to tell your parents about your faith and interests, it would be best to keep it to yourself for now.
Because the Page can be immature and naïve, I feel this card also tells you to not be dependent on your parents (in terms of material goods, or hoping for their approval). Focus on developing your own independence in other areas of life, and this will help you face up to your parents about your faith in the future. For example, you could start a hobby or interest that they do not completely approve of and explore their reaction (as well as your response to their reaction). I feel you have much of growing up to do in many areas of your life – this will be a rocky but deeply fulfilling journey.
- What to do. King of Cups
As opposed to the Page, the King is mature, and being the King of Cups, he is in charge and in control of his emotions. The King of Cups stands in his richly adorned gown, overlooking a stormy sea and hollering boats. In his left hand he holds an arrow pointing down; in his right hand, he points to the full cup at his feet. His feet are protected in metal shoes, which are part of armour.
I feel the cards urge you to develop some emotional independence, especially in regards to your parents’ opinion of you. Whilst everything might seem stormy right now, you are strong enough to develop an emotional understanding of the situation. By wearing metal shoes, you can protect yourself from the negative energies of other people and the situation. You are not using your arrow (your words), rather, you keep them close to your chest in preparation for the right time. The King of Cups is very calm, and does not engage in fiery arguments or altercations – rather he observes the stormy seas that other people are trapped in. The cup of the King of Cups is full, which urges you to look at the positive aspects of your current situation – e.g. the love between you and your parents.
I feel that once you have progressed from the Page to the King, being honest with your parents will be more natural, and you will have the emotional strength to cope with their response. Are there other areas of your life where you can make independent decisions (e.g. hobbies, career) and stand up to your parents? I believe you would learn a lot from these small-scale altercations.
The King is a social representation of his suit – as you say, being a pagan is a gift to both yourself and others. Focus on the good you can bring to others in the time being, without disclosing your faith to your parents. Can you engage in some pagan groups? How can you help others? This might help you endure the situation for now.
The King also has great spiritual satisfaction (rather than material). I feel that exploring your faith further will bring great rewards. Although your situation now is difficult to bear, keep in mind the positive aspects of your life as a pagan.
- What is the meaning of the situation? Eight of Coins
Why has the universe confronted you with this challenge? The eight of coins is a studious man, working quietly at his craft in his workshop. He is surrounded by tools, and a bird is perched near the window, which looks onto a white castle. The man is totally absorbed in his task.
I feel the artisan is depicting your situation, working at being independent and not relying so much on the opinion of your family. He also keeps his craft to himself in his workshop (although he might head off to the market later to sell his stuffs). He has the company of his spirit (bird) and does not mind being away from the white castle (church?).
I feel that focusing on your pagan faith and rituals in a private manner will bring you great joy and a sense of accomplishment. Also, gaining a deeper knowledge of the faith it might help you eventually talk to your parents, connect with their ideas, and build bridges.
The cards in the spread point to personal and spiritual growth. This may take some time (coins and cups cards are rather slow). I feel that by focusing on your independence, building some emotional resilience, and honing your craft, you will learn skills and attitudes that will benefit you for the rest of your life (not just in this situation with your parents). Your cup is full and you evidently are a very strong person, so take your time, challenge your parents (and your relationship to them), and build it up from there.
I hope this reading was helpful. Good luck,